Sore loser

Ok, so I know I've got some issues. But there is one thing that I really need to work on. I'm not happy for other people when they get new/better/other stuff than me! Like when my friend told me she was having a girl. I really should have been happy for her. Nope, I called my husband at work and cried because I wanted a girl. How dumb is that? But I am now happy as can be for her. Or when I go work out with my sister-in-law in the mornings, and she looses weight, and I don't . I get all annoyed that she's so skinny. I know, I'm dumb. So I recently got picked to be on a design team for a new scrapbooking company. That was a major deal by itself (they had over 300 people apply, and I was one of the 10 they chose). Recently the owners of my scrapbook company had a meeting with Creating Keepsakes and Simple Scrapbooks (two scrapbook mags I love!) They took two pages from each member of the Design Team to show off their new papers. The editors of the mags chose 4 pages to publish in their magazines. Ok. First, I should just be grateful that they looked at my pages. I've been submitting pages for publication for years. I know that. But I feel so disappointed when I don't get chosen for these things. That is why I quit trying to get published. So now I have to make 10 more pages, and I'm having a hard time finding motivation because I feel like I'm not good enough to get published. Ick. I hate being the sore loser!